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Blogs > yesmamallthetime > Mellifluous Musings

Repairs Necessary A Poem  

yesmamallthetime 56F  
4471 posts
7/13/2019 9:03 am
Repairs Necessary A Poem

I told him I was going to be okay.
After he told me he was going away.
He had found someone else
Someone more suitable.
Who held more appeal.

I know in my heart of hearts
That he was not the man for me.
He had regrets that haunted him
He had an ex that he would
Jump at the chance to be with
If she gave him that option.

But he had given me just enough
For me to see a future.
Ah yes that little sliver
That my mind worked with.
I am not a gold digger
But I could see myself
Living with him
In the house he planned
On renovating.
He showed me the pictures.
The beautiful lush green lawn
That my dogs could run around on.
The master bedroom
With a master bath
With a jacuzzi tub
And separate shower
Just like in the mansions
I have only seen on television.

I kept thinking I would need
A place to write
He was making himself
An office.
I could just as easily look
Out a big window
With my desk in front of it.

It has been years since
I had this much of a picture
To build on.
I live a pretty minimal existence.
Perhaps that is one of my charms
I am happy with peanuts.
And so that is what I get.
And for even that little
I show much gratitude.
My manners are nearly impeccable.

So the dreams flourished.
How he would come home from work
How I would greet him.
How we would have dinner
And then one thing would
Lead to another.
How we would fall asleep
Me with my pussy
Full of his semen.
Then waking up!
Ah the morning sex!
We both have a thing for that!

But then he met someone else.
Someone who met his criteria
On some finer level.
But he wanted to remain friends.
He did not hate me.
He probably felt pity.
They often do.
It makes me wonder
If there ever will be
Someone who can share
Their goals and dreams
And not take them away.
To share with somebody new.

So what do I miss?
The physical stuff yes.
The dreams I had of us
That will never come to be.
Those combined will take
Some time to leave
And be replaced.

But if he can find someone
Shouldn't I think I can too?
I shouldn't think myself
Totally worthless and unlovable.
But somehow I do.
The job men do on my self esteem
It is never fully repaired
From one to the next.
How could it ever be?
It is such a tall task.
I could keep therapists
Employed for years.
Until they retire
Of old age.
And some have.
Independently Romantic Sounds Better Than Lonely
yesmamallthetime 56F  
11278 posts
7/13/2019 9:05 am

 Sorry for the length. I am trying to work this out in my head. Writing may be somewhat cathartic.
Independently Romantic Sounds Better Than Lonely


scoupe42 61M
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7/13/2019 9:48 am

 My friend, your are a good woman, and if a good man cross your path and want you in his life, regardless of what he has, go for it!


yesmamallthetime 56F  
11278 posts
7/13/2019 9:54 am
    Quoting scoupe42:
    My friend, your are a good woman, and if a good man cross your path and want you in his life, regardless of what he has, go for it!
Thank you Scoupe. I have good and bad parts to myself like anyone. Thank you for being supportive and encouraging. Hope you have a wonderful weekend.
Independently Romantic Sounds Better Than Lonely


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