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Heart Renovation
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Heart Renovation "The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present." - Barbra De Angelis Some may be wondering how I truly am and what has gone on with me and my situation since I have been taking my involuntary hiatus from our wonderful blogland. To be honest I have been completely consumed overwhelmed drowning in anger, anger towards so many things.. My mind, body, and spirit were being strangled, held captive by the cold steel trap of anger and<b> fury </font></b>that was within me !! Love, compassion and forgiveness could not loosen it's grip upon. For the first time in my life I crossed the line of self love into self hate..no self disgust is more the term I should use. To be honest again I felt just about he same towards my husband of 19 years, yep we just had our 19th back on the 30th.. Why decisions that had been made in the past that now are completely controlling ruining our lives in some aspects. Growing up like I did security will always be very important to me finical and physical now that both are gone I feel very naked and alone even scared at times... I have been trying to deal with this anger and self hate and though I have gotten it somewhat under control and changed my perspective the best I can. There is so much more anger in me that I never recognized before, that I ever imagined myself capable of even.. I found that I was/am in desperate need of a Heart Renovation... So if I can get passed my shyness, my shame, I plan on sharing some of the thoughts and reflective moments I had on my journey while on my hiatus. LovesLilies  relevant post Broken Beyond Repair 
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Just accepting that you plan to share your recent thoughts and reflective moments is, I believe, a big step in the right direction of the mending of your broken heart.
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LL you KNOW if you need someone to talk to, my chat window/email and even phone are always open to ya sweetheart. Always  -tm
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I feel like a jerk for the suggestion I just left on your previous post. You don't need a man hitting on you, you need a good friend you can talk with until the wee hours of the morning. CityHookups.com says we are 74 miles apart - if you'd like to sit and talk, for however many hours, let me know. I've only been a blog friend for a short while, but it seems you need a friend you can unload on and talk things out, and I'd be glad to help. This week I'm alone, as my wife is on vacation in Minnesota, so my ear is completely at your service. If you don't choose me, I hope you find someone else with whom you can talk for hours.
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 Look at you being so courageous and brave!! You are entitled to feel whatever you feel, Lily. Anger can be scary... and consumes much energy. You're doing the right things... feeling it, dealing with it and letting it go. Bit by bit, one goes far. I'm in your corner, Lily.
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in some ways I know where I will be but not all. time will tell though
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Just accepting that you plan to share your recent thoughts and reflective moments is, I believe, a big step in the right direction of the mending of your broken heart.
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thanks hun
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LL you KNOW if you need someone to talk to, my chat window/email and even phone are always open to ya sweetheart. Always -tm I never seem to have the time to just chat to anyone for any length of time, that's why I blog I can when the opportunity arises you are a sweetie for offering.
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oh hun blogging helps me tremendously thanks for the love hun
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I feel like a jerk for the suggestion I just left on your previous post. You don't need a man hitting on you, you need a good friend you can talk with until the wee hours of the morning. CityHookups.com says we are 74 miles apart - if you'd like to sit and talk, for however many hours, let me know. I've only been a blog friend for a short while, but it seems you need a friend you can unload on and talk things out, and I'd be glad to help. This week I'm alone, as my wife is on vacation in Minnesota, so my ear is completely at your service. If you don't choose me, I hope you find someone else with whom you can talk for hours. Your offer is so sweet but I honestly do not have the time or opportunity to do such things 
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yes the right path, I stood a the beginning of this leg of my trip long enough so here I go now 
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Look at you being so courageous and brave!! You are entitled to feel whatever you feel, Lily. Anger can be scary... and consumes much energy. You're doing the right things... feeling it, dealing with it and letting it go. Bit by bit, one goes far. I'm in your corner, Lily. so true its draining me of everything, I wish I could just blink my eyes and all of this anger would be gone but I know it just doesn't work that way, dang me brave naw just desperate to be rid of it
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faith these days, I am hanging on by a thread.. just a mustard seed I keep reminding myself. thank you for your prayers I need all I can get
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I know and I am trying to work through it I am not happy this away not at all !
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