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Abandonment
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Abandonment Sometimes things happen that make you realize that as a person you have grown and maybe even taken a few steps backwards in your quest to be a better person, a happier person or just a better functioning person. If I look back to the last 3 years I realize that my abandonment of small things and large things alike in a sense have changed the person I am for the better and the worse. Honestly I used to be more of a neurotic type person in many regards. I used to over analyze everything, I used to create my interpretations within my brain and then live by them whether they were reality or not. And then again, in a smaller sense I have given up many vices in order to improve my quality of life. Right now....and I mean RIGHT NOW!!! I need a cigarette badly!! Back in October I gave up smoking. I had a major life event happen to me that made me realize that my health was more important than I ever originally believed. Cold turkey I went and I still haven’t had a cigarette although I crave and still take a drag here or there. Now there are some things I have given up that maybe are not so dramatic. I have given up the idea that the world revolves around me. I have given up the idea of finding that one true love that is stronger than anything else I have ever experienced. I have given up Vodka (hard one!) I have given up raw cookie dough ice cream (cannot control intake at any time.) I have given up thong panties....I like the brazillian cut ones better. I have given up denial that a little bit of collegen around my eyes or my lips is not a necessity. I have abandoned the idea that I should be nice to everyone....I am not. I have given up the lifestyle of working only and not enjoying anything. I go away whenever I can, wherever I can afford. I have given up multiple orgasms....Can someone give me one please? I have abandoned my massage shower head....it broke....I cry every morning... Lots of abandonment....What have you abandoned lately? Bella bellina  |
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I have abandoned the idea that I will ever find real love again. I think everyone has a soul mate, and I found mine, and he passed away. Over the years I wondered if that kind of love would ever find me again and abandoning that idea was very, very hard. But if you only get one soul mate, then, I guess that is it. That was the hardest thing for me to accept. And after last Saturday, I have abandoned Jello Shooters. LOL
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i have abandoned all future hope with my partner...sighhhhhhhh  []   Seduce my mind and my body
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7/14/2008 11:40 pm |
Maturing is not a bad thing when it's your mentality and approach towards life. You might think I am bullshitting but I noticed a very distinct change in the overall tone of your blog entries since you returned here. I mean in a more positive way of course. On the other side of the coin, Not the thongs!!!!
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7/14/2008 11:42 pm |
PS- Your cute little pussy looks so nice in that photo, can I pet it? 
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7/15/2008 2:57 am |
I have given up chocolate.
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I have given up trying to change the world. From now on, I'm only gonna change me. Sex is a part of nature. I go along with nature. Marilyn Monroe
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7/15/2008 7:32 am |
I've given up feeling that I can make everything right, all I can do is the next right thing for me roaming the cyber streets of blogland  
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In the last few years I have given up a train of thought that kept me from travel. You see, my mind always worked on the premis that if I spend money I have to have something concrete and physical in my hands. My weaknes being technology. I found travel didn't give me this. An adventurous person by nature, I can't tell you why it took so long to "get it". Though I have traveled abroad before, my recent change has taken me to Italy, Spain, Vietnam, Thailand and China just in the last 2 years. I have always felt that I was the last person that hasn't been to Vegas...now I can say I've been there. Not sure yet of where to go next...I just need to make up my mind, and it will happen. J
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I think I've given up on the thought that I need to be married for the rest of my life...I will simply contend myself with those that I allow to get only so close, and never any closer. On a somewhat lighter note, I have given up the idea that I will drive a Porsche (or BMW) at the 24 Hour Race at Lemans before I die. I will simply be content with a few laps at Laguna Seca, Spa Francorchamps and Nurburgring... This Holy Grail might not happen and I'm big enough to admit it....
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7/15/2008 7:00 pm |
You've given up multiple orgasms?!?! All that other stuff is good to give up... but not multiple orgasms. Maybe I can help.
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7/15/2008 7:56 pm |
Bella...why didn't you tell me you gave up on multiple orgasms...think I might be able to give you hand...got references if you in doubt..heheh Chow Bella
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7/16/2008 9:57 am |
cookie dough ice cream AND vodka?! are you mad? (btw, i can fix that shower head for you) 
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I SHOULD give up over-analyzing myself in the first place, but apparently we're a bit the same...
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9/1/2008 1:00 pm |
No vodka? Ridiculous!
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